I was going to postpone putting this thread in until later but earlier events have compelled me to do this sooner.
Disclaimer: This will be a long to semi long post with somewhat serious stuff so if you are looking for something else you might want to look elsewhere.
Greetings Players,
For those of you that don't know me my name is General Knowledge. I am here to tell a story and hopefully spread a message. I put this in the art section because it relates to people in this community. Anyway let me begin.
As a young child I was diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome and Bipolar Disorder. This led to a very unhappy childhood and I had relatively no freinds throughout my childhood years. In June of 2007 my therapist reccomended I buy an MMO to help me out with my social problems and as an outlet for problems I have. I chose CoX and I began playing. It didn't really change anything, even when I transitioned form high school to college, until this January. That is when I joined the SG "Explicit Content" on the Pinnacle server.
For those of you that don't know, that is EnnVee's SG. I got to know her and began talking to her. At first it was casual chitchat but then I confessed to her that I was gay. This was at a time when hardly anyone knew I was and my parents did not fully accept. Telling Ennvee I was gay opened a door that needed to have been opened for a long time. She, and to an extent Barron, began talking to me about issues I was facing, like my parents not being accepting of me, and soon she took over a role in my life that needed to be filled, she became my RL mentor.
EnnVee began talking to me and helping me to overcome my RL problems. she did it in an unorthodox manner. She did not sugarcoat anything. EnnVee told me the truth sometimes despite how bad it may hurt because it was what I needed to hear. With her help I confronted my parents. I did not get them to believe that I was gay but they at least supposedly accept it. At the same time there were men at my college that I was interested in, however these were later found out to not be the kind of people I thought they were. I found out these things by EnnVee teaching me important lessons by setting me up to fail. I know this sounds sadistic but I learned things by failing with these people that I would've learned in a harder manner on my own, between my disorder and my naivety.
Things started to improve greatly for me. Over the summer EnnVee and Barron started helping me learn to stand up for myself and grow a backbone. Before her mentoring began I was a doormat and I would never stand up for myself or hold my ground. With her help I achieved a longtime goal of mine. With my transfer to the University of Colorado Denver Campus I will finally be moving out and away from my folks, which will most likely make my life a lot greater. Even in the forums a little while back she managed to reach into your hearts and get me a touching gift for my birthday when I couldn't afford art myself.
To this day EnnVee continues to listen to me when I have problems in any way shape or form. She doesn't always tell me something sugar coated and sweet but she tells me exactly what I need to hear. I know she may do this for all of her freinds but it means so much to me to have someone stepping in and filling in a place that has needed to be filled for years.
Her and "Explicit Content", and I know this is gonna sound real dorky, are some of the greatest freinds I have right now. The reason I post this now instead of when I was planning to is that tonight I had some help from her again and she helped me wake up and realize that life is hard and often people who you think are your freinds are really big jerks. A large circle of my RL freinds have sort of abandoned me and treated me badly when I've been going through these tough times. EnnVee and "Explicit Content" have stuck with me through al my problems and have never once thought less of me because of them.
I am trying to EnnVee back for all the help she has gven me (At this point I might as well be a permanent indentured servant based on what I owe her) she has done this all out of the kindness of her heart and now I am going to try to pay her back. I have asked an artist to do a free piece for her. This artist accepted but EnnVee will just have to wait and see how it turns out.
To everyone in the art community, there are many people like me. Young, naive, and troubled people who sometimes need a freind in difficult times. It doesn't matter if you met them online or they live down the street. Being a mentor can mean the world to people like me. So if you see someone having a hard time, open your heart.
Okay I rambled on long enough. To EnnVee, I thank you for everything you've done for me, and here's to hoping my story can inspire others.